Sometimes I know things before they happen. These times I know something are not visions, but simply an understanding that something will happen. (Text here is removed from journal for its personal nature.)
Sometimes I am also wrong. Coincidence is very possible. So is pattern recognition, common in the neuroatypical; we observe a lot with our hyperaware senses and process things consciously or otherwise.
Pattern recognition cleanly explains why I often know what my family is thinking and how often I predict others’ thoughts/behaviors.
Sensitive people like me have probably been regarded as psychics and witches and shamans in other Belief Systems, regardless of the cause.
I have no real control over this “ability” and often don’t “see” things coming at all. It is not practically useful, though always interesting in hindsight. Attempts to develop scrying/foreseeing have not really been successful, though I do still enjoy fortune telling. My insights are sincere.
My skeptical spouse is willing to accept me as a psychic/wisdom, but he always indulges me.
- It felt like I was “more psychic” during chronic heavy cannabis usage.
- This ability has grown with time
- It’s more reliable with near-to-me people
- It often makes sense in hindsight
- Frequency is convincing to me but would not withstand scientific scrutiny
- It can be hard to differentiate knowing/intuition from anxiety
